This n this n this is our fate. I'm yours!

Firstly these are some pics of my new place :) I tried to load them once before and something happened so I'm sorry if they come up twice. Then there is one of me with a member of the guard...who winked at me!!! It was hilairous. I was shocked. That expression is smile going into shock. haha. Then lastly we have my boys in spedos. hahaha. Ok I guess I cant really call them my boys, but these are the infamous few that I went to Europe with that insisted on getting spedos. Yes, the one in the middle has one too, but we took the picture before he took off his trunks. haha.

It goes Danny, Mindaugas, Robbie, Justin, Tyler.Haha there you go. :) Enjoy the silly faces.

Becks your hair looks beautiful :) No matter the length I think that will always be the case though :) And you can be assured I'm rooting for you and your book. I know you're so close and I want to read from a hard cover. Any day now :)

Jayne, I must have more details of Hawaii! I know you're having the time of your life and I never hear much about it :) Although as I hear it you're also vry busy, so I'm not too upset about no updates. But, hey, who can blame me for being curious as to how your lovely face is impacting one of the more beautiful places of the world?

Mad now that I am closer to you I think we must do something some time. I miss your big laugh and the way you put your hand up to your cheek when you gets excited. I need Maddi time! haha

Rachel, you sill girl, you are terrible at updating this thing! Well, lets be honest, Beck and I were talking and nobody has really updated recently so I'm just gonna jump in and do one. Especially since there's so much to update on. I hope it will slightly motivate you to do one too cause I love hearing about your lives and I just love you girls. haha. Today is August 4th. Basically the end of my summer as I am back in Utah. I moved into my new place on saturday and sent my mom home on a plane yesterday. I have met one of my five roommates and she is wonderful. Her name is Kat and she has a lot of the best interests ever! I only say that cause we have them pretty much in common. She loves music, of every kind, art, food and she loves to talk. So we're pretty much the same, hahaha. But really, she's very sweet. The house is really cute. It's a split level with a pretty small kitchen, but the whole thing needs some TLC. There's very little here and not very much color on the wall. I hope to remedy that soon :) Oh! We found a cat in the window well when we moved in. It was stuck down there and I finally called animal control today to try and get it out. It was such a FAT kitty!!!! It couldnt jump out of a three foot hole. I felt kind of bad. But now he's safe and I get to live in my house with no crying kitties :)

In way of school I'm stinkin excited for the semester to begin at LDSBC. I went over to request a transcript yesterday and it was wonderful! I miss it very much. I'm sure I will in the winter too, because you heard right, I went to request a transcript. I'm hoping to transfer to BYU. I have everything in and ready to go, but the stinkin Besmart thing wont let me pay online. haha. So I'm probably gonna have to take a trip down to Provo and get that taken care of myself. Wont be a problem, I'm kind of excited to take the trip anyhow. haha. So we'll see how that all goes and with any luck I'll be there in the winter.

In way of work...I'm still looking. haha. Today has been my get things done day. I exercised, wrote missionarries letters, looked for some jobs, applied for a few, got numbers for lowes, home depot and a chevy dealer so I can find a place to make a duplicate of my car key...cause heaven knows I may be needing it :) haha. Anyhow, there is one job I am particularly drawn to right now. I found an add in the Salt Lake tribune for a part time opening taking newborn pictures at the university hospital in Salt Lake and I want it so bad. It's requires every other weekend and only three days a week, which is perfect since I'm going to school two out of five days of the week..although I may be switching one of them for another class on mondays and wednesday, cause I'll be in classes for about 8 hours every tuesday and 6 every thursday taking that route. which isnt too bad right now, but i don't know how it will be working too. Eh! We'll see. haha.

Here's a big one. What have I done with my summer? Not a whole lot :) Listening to music has been part of everything, but whats new there? haha I am now a fan of Nightwish, a bigger fan of Jason Mraz and have found one of the cutest songs from Never Shout Never called Trouble. So cute :) Traveling has been great!there's still a ton about Europe that hasn't been touched on. I still need to post the spedo picture :) haha Boston was wonderful too. I went with my family for a week. We went to Salem, saw the witchy stuff :) Toured the house of 7 gables. We saw a lot of the historical sites in Boston itself. We visited the grave of Paul Revere, who is actually an ancestor, so kinda cool. And the old north and south church, we took the duck tours!!! which was awesome and ate a lot of good food. We also visited the temple. That was probably my favorite part. It was Spencer's first time to go do baptisms and my first time with both my parents as well as my entire family. It was tender :) And beautiful! The grounds were incredible and the spirit was amazing. I highly recommend it as a place to visit. I could also recommend one of the Dunkin Doughnuts there, but they wouldn't be hard to find. There were more of those than starbucks and walmarts combined. It was bizarre. All in all a pretty rockin trip. Right after we got back from Boston we were able to settle for a week and revive our juices, then it was off to Utah for a week :) haha. We spent the fourth of July up here and it was splendid. fireworks, barbecues, tubing down some rivers, waterslides in jeans cause I didnt have my swimming suite and lots of being crafty. I made Jenn a birthday present as her birthday is two days before mine and we roasted starbursts over a fire pit. This was also a pretty defining weekend. jenn , as you may remember is Justin's sister. I spent quite a bit of time with him during that week. At the end of the week he wanted an answer. Something with closure in a moving forward sort of manner or to close all doors. Well in this last summer it has become very obvious to me that I'm not ready to get married and my heart isn't exactly entirely anyone's right now. Which is also exceedingly unfair to all parties. And there's still so much I want to do. I want to know exactly who I am and have an understanding of the gospel and make sure that who I am is who Heavenly Father plans for me to be, atleast at that time. And I wanna be an EFY counselor!!!! haha. I just want to know I'm being the best person I can be and be able to give that to the person I love most. So we closed all doors in approach to a relationship and now just remain friends. It's hard sometimes, but the time was far from right. And making this choice was one of the only things that has given me such peace in a good long while. At the same time, as I prayed about these things I also got the answer that I needed to be dating Riley right now. That it was something I needed to do. Maddi, I'm sure you're not thrilled to hear about that, but know that it's been good. If it wasn't the lord wouldn't have told me to do so. But I tell ya what, he has changed. He's still Riley and as wonderful and ever, but he's decidedly more considerate of...everything. haha. He has matured in many ways. He takes notice of those around him, includes and tries to be the person they need him to be. And he's considerably more weathered. They did finally find out what was wrong with him, and oddly enough, it was the day after I told him what was going on with Justin. And he was very comforting about the whole ordeal. He's been such a stronghold and an exmple to me this summer. I don't think that him comming home was a coincidence. I think I needed someone to show me the things I wasn't ready for, but by being loved at all the same time and that I needed to be there to help him too. I don't know how, but I think we were both the only way we each were going to learn these things. Who knows. haha. I'm not waiting. I'm still dating and living life, while writing him, but we'll see where that takes us. I don't know if it's meant to be, but I love him dearly and sent him again for the second time when I moved back to Utah. He's leaving today for Alabama again and he's better than ever. I hope I can be the same all the way out here.

Well there ya go. My summer in a nutshell. Oh! I have done some considerable amounts of rock climbing and have found I LOVE it. So this may become a new hobby. As soon as I can find an instructor to teach me the knots and the money for the equipment. haha this could take a while. So as for now I'll stick to rollerblading, which I can finally do again because Taylorsville isn't as hilly as Flagstaff! haha. Anyhow. I'll leave you ladies be. I'm off to go job huntine again and read a little bit. I love you all dearly and hope you all have some light in your life. If from nothin else then from the sky. That's my favorite place to look. It makes me realize how little I am and it always amazes me. I can tell the lord is in it :) Stay strong, you're beautiful!

-Rachel

Locks of Love and Loving the Bob

So like oh my heck Rae, can I just tell you how incredibly happy I am that you got to go to Europe? Like 99.9 %. The remaining percent is wishing I could have been there with you. Someday we'll all have to go to Europe. It's definetely on my to-do list.

Pig, let us know how your RA job is going. I am really curious to hear what kind of things you have to deal with at BYU-Hawaii, and if you're enjoying it. Congrats on graduating, though I am sorry about the rain. What's the boy situation from your side of the world?

Madds- I feel very vengeful everytime I read about your roommates. It makes me want to take up kick-boxing and then visit them. I would like to dispense my displeasure on them, verbally, and physically. You have nightmare roommates. You could honestly make a horror film about them. Hateful people. But from me to you- hang in there babes.

I chopped off over a foot of hair. AAAAAaaaaahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've lost my marbles right? (Well that fact was established ages ago). I actually like it a lot. And hate it a lot. So here's the story. As most of you know, I've had my hair a few inches from my tukus (that's butt in becky language) for almost 6 years now. I was very attached to it. It was like that one constant thing in my life. If my skin sucks, or I'm feeling fat (daily occurance), or just plain ugly, I knew I could always count on my hair to be my one redeeming feature. Unfortunately, the hair finally had enough of taking all the pressure. So I'm not sure if I mentioned this, but my OB put me on a new birth control last christmas, and essentually stopped my periods for 5 months. They were just testing my hormones, and it was pretty nice, but my hairdresser thinks it induced alopecia areata-hair loss in certain patches. I've been losing a lot of hair on the top of my scalp and in one spot in particular. My hair was seriously hashed. There was no body, or volume, and it was getting really thin on top, while still being really thick on the bottom. So, after talking to Tori, who had a similar problem, I followed in her footsteps and chopped off my hair. I had full intentions of growing it back immediately, and just getting a fresh start like she did, but now I'm not sure what I want to do with it. I love the style, and everyone else says it fits me way better than my long hair. Hhhhm. I don't really think so. It's fun and cute, but really I think it's just a faction of myself. I think the long hair was a huge part of my identity; a part that I liked, and even though I will probably keep this hairstyle for a couple of years, in the end I think I'll be going back to my long hair.

So what did I do with all that hair? I'm donating it. That was actually the deciding factor for me. I thought about taking it up about 6 inches and seeing if that would help, but the more I thought about it, the more I knew that I would regret it if I didn't. All the hair a few inches away from the scalp was in really good condition, and it would be wasteful not to donate it. Hopefully Locks of Love can turn it into a beautiful wig for some little girl who's lost her hair.

I thought it would be easier to style my hair short. Wrong. I have to style it. It's too short for a ponytail, barely fits into pigtails, and looks absolutely terrible if I don't style it. Hopefully it will just take time. (For the first time in several years I am using hairspray. The only times I ever used hairspray was for things like dance/guard competitions. wierd.) So right now the hair is a love-hate relationship.

My family news: Lolly has a bubble on her belly! Teehee! I am so excited to be an aunt! And guess what?!!?!! Benneth Lee is coming home from his mission in a few days!!!!!!!! I am ecstatic! I have missed my bro so bad. If anyone can make me laugh, it's him, and it's become pretty clear to me that I need that badly right now. I am coming home late in July with Boz to see Ben. Lindsay: A doll and a half. Gosh that girl is becoming so gorgeous, and mature. (Boys are lining up-literally). My mum: She actually just got a part time job at an Arts Studio. (As a secretary). It's totally the kind of place I would like to work at when I finish my degree. (dance, music, acting etc...) Unfortunately, my dad is still unemployed. It's been 7 months now, and the money is running low. We're hoping my moms job will at least ease the strain. Especially because my dad is (my sister-in-law from Canada) Stephanie's legal sponsor, she and Jon may have to move back to Canada. I know the Lord will take care of us though. If you could remember my family in your prayers that would be nice, and I have a special request; I am personally having a really hard time, and I've been fighting it for over a year now, but it's not getting any better. I don't know what's wrong. It's getting to the point where my parents want me to go to a doctor. My dad thinks I have depression, and/or the hormone experimenting my OB did on me really threw me off, but regardless I am having a hard time. I think the hardest part is knowing 'I'm not that girl' (the kind to get depressed) and I never have been. I've always been a happy person-when I get in ruts I get back out, and fast. I don't what the solution is, so If you could keep me in your prayers I would really appreciate it.

Oh and by the way, there is a possiblity that I will be going to the lake with science boy. *big smile*. He invited my roommate to plan a lake trip with him and asked her to invite her friends. We'll see if it happens. It might not even get planned. But if it does, the lake is the perfect opportunity to see if he really is a player and jerk. (You know how guys get in water. They seem to have few inhibitions, and are so physical. Wierdest thing ever in my opinion but whatever.) I am hoping that I will be pleasantly suprised.

Also my roommate and I (Krys) might be living in the wilderness for a week or two. (literally in Zions or Cali beaches, no hotel rooms, no showers, a backpack of stuff and thats it.) This is my attempt at shedding pounds and getting away from Cedar. We just want to walk all day and explore.

I love you girls so much, and feel privelaged to call you my sisters.

--Becks--

P.S. I changed the background...I'm not sure what I think of it-let me know.

Alright. I already tried this about twice and someone turned off my computer and I lost all of about seven stinkin hilarious paragraphs and then my computer died the other time. SO I'm just gonna start all over. I had responded in some very comical ways to everyones last posts, but lo, they are lost. I am very sad about this.

Maddi-Wifeypoo - I mentioned a few ways to get rid of your roommate and then some comical things about pirates and putting jello in her toilet to solidify overnight and laughing afar from a motorhome i came to rescue you in and all this crazyness about sending valene on a long voyage on an impossible rafting trip alone in the ocean and getting kidnapped by pirates... I hope you can get a good mental image from that alone, cause thats about all I recall. haha.

Jaynie - I whole heartedly approve of living in a library cut off from boys for a few years. I shal join you. Although I'm sure that at this point in time you probably are slightly more fond of boys again :) haha. And don't worry, I'm not getting married anytime soon if we're going off of things the way they are right now. Yes more will follow on that matter shortly :) But I miss you bunches and think we need to find a time to get together soon. I haven't seen you in too long of a time.

Rabeaky - As Jayne and I have mentioned....boys are silly and I agree with her. Don't date the jerks. And I'm so thirlled for you that you book is coming along. I loved what I heard of it and can't wait to read the finished product. And I'm sorry if I've forgotten the gender. It's been a while since I tried to update and things got messed up, but I shall now relay the news you asked me to on our last conversation. Lauren is having a baby girl! haha ok I'm going to call you can double check really quick just to be sure.....Yes! It is a baby girl :) Congrats for being an aunty!

Haha alright as for news, there's a bit...like a lot a bit. haha. Lets start with these lovely pictures :) Yes, they are of Europe!!!!! This first on is at Versailles in France. going from the top we've got Tyler (the blonde one), Mindauges (kinda hiding behind a head), Danny smack in the middle, Justin (not my justin, a friend), Myself and Robbie. Tadum. This was a stinkin awesome day. Good pictures, good laughs, and incredible sights.

This is a shot from one of our ridiculously long road trips. We had six of us in a five passenger car for a grand total of about 30 hours. haha. We had three in the back, one across the lap and two in front THE ENTIRE TIME. And guess who got to be on top for most of it...Yes. The little girl.Me. haha. I am actually going to see a chiropractor on monday too...this aided in my cause. haha. From the back and from left to right we have Tyler,Me, Justin,Danny on our laps,Robbie and Mindauges in front. It was Mindauges' car. A black BMW. We made that thing more white trash that it ever should have been. haha

This one is in front of the Louvre. Robbie,Justin,Me,Danny.THIS was so cool. I wanted to stay longer..but hey, I was with three guys. haha. Tyler and Mindauges went with some girls we met at the timeshare for this part of the day. I actually hav a picture of them on here too. They were canadian. Oh lets see. This was one of the last days and we were stinkin pooped for it. After the Louvre we walked to the Arche de Triumphe and it took about, oh, an hour and a half. My feet were so stiff I could hardly walk. Terrible. haha. Oh my goodness, before I forget. This was also where they jumped into a hollow column in the Louvre, about a nine foot drop, where there were no cameras and pulled out a ton of old Euros. I thought we were gonna get arrested for sure.haha. I'll have to get the videos and put em on here when I get the chance :)

And here we are on the Eiffel Tower. Yes. We took the stairs. It was killer. My butt looked so good after this trip and all the walking and stairs we climbed. From the left we have Danny, Robbie, Me , Justin, Kara,Tyler, Carine. The guys had a goal to kiss a girl on the Eiffel Tower before we left...We were there for three hours....And none of them got a kiss. hahaha. Ok, that's a lie. Tyler did. He got one of that Canadians to do it. But the other guys don't know that :) haha. They did however find a girl who gave us directions and was ridiculously confident. She ended up getting kissing pictures in front of the eiffel tower with Danny, Justin AND Robbie. There ya go. Some people have no shame. haha. I refer to the boys in that. All kissing the same girl within two minutes of eachother.haha.

There's our stair shot of climing up the tower. Tyler and the Canadians actually took the elevator. We wanted to be able to say we climbed all the way up :) Oh! Maddi you will like this. I'm not sure you can tell incredibly well in these pictures, but justin looks like Jerry from seignfeld :) haha. Ok Just because I'm gonna try and get another picture on here of him so you can see. hahahahaha. I'll probably put it on another one. But it will get posted :)

White. Yes.

Yay. Looks like we're doing the blogging thing again! Well my first pic is when i went to utah. Melissa, Maddi, Me, Jon. The next one is an old one i found of a random Flagstaff trip. K so my turn to catch everyone up. On my past 2 months. I decided I have a very white personality type when it comes to this kinda thing. Hmmm... K so I finished my first semester at BYUH. Made some amazing friends there. Avoided most drama. Happy. Came home. Made Melissa, one my "original 8" (my group of besties in Hawaii) fly down from Vegas to spend a few days with me. We had fun. We went to the lake and stuff. Then I went to Prom with Tanner. Super fun. My dress was obnoxious and purple.Then i did nothing for a while other then sleep. Well i kindaish started dating this boy. Eh that didnt last long. Shocker. Him and I drove up to Utah together. He continued on to Idaho but i stayed in UT. I got to see Maddi! She conveniently forgot to write that in her good-news part of her blog. And I got to see all but 3 of the kids from my group from HI. We partied. Happy. I flew home and decided to actually spend time with friends here. Its been fun actually. Ive been on some fun dates. One of my favorites was going to the new Toby Keith restaurant. It was way good. Well, okay, i ordered a grilled cheese sandwich so i dunno how you could mess that up. But it was still good. Oh yeah I graduated from high school too. It rained during the entire ceremony. I looked disgusting afterwards or I woulda posted pics. It was cute. Ive really just been having a good time in Mesa. Like Ive been hanging out with some kids that I always wanted to be better friends with here, and some that I never wanted to be better friends with but theyve turned out to be pretty cool. I go back to school in a week. Like Becky Im gonna be an RA. Hopefully it will be fun cuz im contracted to do it for 1 full year. Is it bad that Im tired of dating and would be perfectly happy if I were allowed to live in a library and not see people other than my professors for oh, the next 5 years or so?
Rachel, dont get married just yet. please and thank you.
Maddi, um Jesus said love everyone. And good luck getting rid of the red-head. And yay for the Jordan letter.
And Becky, cant wait for your finished book. And dont date the jerks, thats my specialty.
Well, like always. I love you guys and feel honored to be your friend and be allowed to have some small part in your lives, even if its just through this blog. Loves.

Sorry...

That was long. Pictures next time.

I know I know I know...

I've been slacking on the blogging thing. My sincerest apologies. :) Ok so story time. Chronological order ofcourse:


Well I finished my first term at BYU. It turned out fairly well, I still have all my limbs and sanitity. Yay me! I was promoted to Bakery Manager at the creamery. I'm in charge of the entire bakery, so cool. My roommate from last semester...okay buckle up this is going to be a wild ride:

Ok, so I can't really remember how much I've told you guys but I'll just tell you the whole thing...

So my roommate is named Valene, she is a red head, from Utah, and an English major. As soon as I heard that I really should have run for my life. So when I found out Valene is my roommate, I start e-mailing her to start getting to know her. Its weird from the start... She e-mails me and she asks me a few questions about myself, then proceeds to go on for 5 paragraphs about ber herself, how she is first chair in her orchestra, how she was number 3 in her class, how all the boys are in love with her, how her dad makes so much money, and how she is in the middle of writing a best seller about cats. We preceed to e-mail and she askes me how I want to decorate our room. I'm thinking a simple color scheme, but then she starts talking about a budget, and curtains, and art for the walls... I mean thats cute, but we're only going to be in this dorm for less than a year. So I finally get to BYU and oh boy...

So when you pick your room in the dorms, you fill out this survey about your sleeping habits, cleanliness, music etc. And then you can look at what your potential roommate said to see if you would be compatiable. Well I didn't know all of this, but when I found out some of her answers things started to make a lot of sense. Example: One of the questions reads, "How clean would you say you are" Answers, A) Really Messy B) Somewhat messy C) Fairly clean D) Extremely clean, a sock on the floor causes extreme stress....(I kid you not) Ok so I put C, I'm a fairly clean person and so thats what I put. Later do I find out she put D!!! AHHHHHHH kill me now! So, like any normal college student, I wake up late one day and I don't have time to make my bed...Heaven forbid. When I get home...she sweetly, (everything is done oh so sweetly) that I need to make my bed. Hmmmm....ok? It got to the point where one time she told me I couldn't go take a test until I made my bed. I was like... you've GOT to be kidding me.

She has this boyfriend named Matt and she bosses him around like none other. And then she comes home and asks me a million questions about if I think Matt is good enough for her because she is SOOO amazing?! And she stayed out with him till 4 or 5 in the morning and then comes home and turns on all the lights while I'm trying to sleep. But get this...I was out on a date one night, and it was 11pm and she called and told me I had been out too long and that it was time for me to come home! She does it in the morning too, she had an 8 in the morning class so she would wake up at 7 and turn on all the lights and put on music! And when I asked her about it one time, she said she did it because it was time for me to wake up.

She was super judemental, like I had strep throat for 2 weeks so I spent a lot of time in bed resting and such, and that next week her mom came over at like 11am and I was in the kitchen doing something and she said "Wow, I'm suprised you're out of bed, Valene says you don't get out of bed till like 3 or 4 in the afternoon" Um...ok? It was a nightmare, let me tell you. She has told me I'm ugly, stupid, and fat all in one day. She's a hoarder, and uses peoples things without asking, but never shares ANYTHING of hers. She brought $60 pans to college and got mad when we used them, even though she would use our flour, sugar, cinnamon, and pans to make 10 loaves of bread, and wouldn't share a single slice!

So basically I acted out passively agressively and made our room a complete disaster. I left all my dirty clothes on the floor and never made my bed and when she demanded that I clean up I said NO! So we had this big long talk, she told me all the things that were horrible about me, and when I tried constructivly to explain some of the things that she does that bother me she said she never does any of those things, and that she couldn't compromise anymore than she already had...

But I was pressured and signed a contract to live with her this next fall. Really really really dumb, I know. She is currently in London right now. More to come on the topic of Valene later.

Ok...so my other roommate and I went on this killer roadtrip as soon as finals were over. We went to San Fransisco, down to LA, and then to San Diego. It was SO fun. She dropped me off in Mesa on her way to Georgia. I stayed in Mesa for a week and half to spend time with my family. And then flew back up to Provo, to work for the summer.

So I get back to Provo and move into my new apartment just down the street from my new apartment. I meet my two new roommates who are both name Lexie, funny I know. They are super nice and we hit it off really well. But then I try to bring my boxes into my room, and I can't open the door...so I shove and push a little bit and open the door a crack so I can see whats going on inside. It looks like a tornado went through the room...Paper, clothes, boxes everywhere, so that I couldn't even open the door! Both beds are covered so I shove my way into the room and start shoving things onto one side of the room so I have some space to put my stuff. My room roommate then comes home. Her name is Heather, she is from Tiawan and doesn't speak English very well. She seems nice...she says she will clean up a bit. Two weeks later...still a huge mess. But it gets worse, she is the loudest person I have ever met. Every single movement she makes is a Bang. She walks loudly, talks loudly, and even breaths loudly. So she'll come home at 4 or 5 in the morning and makes TONS of noise and wakes everyone up.

Theres more...when she does get home really late, I'll be in bed, under the covers asleep and she'll come into our room and start trying to talk to me. Even though the lights are off and I'm obviously asleep. She talks to herself, loudly of course. And she is the filthiest person I have ever ever met. She makes food, chicken or beef and not only does it REAK and stink up our whole apartment but she'll leave it sitting on the counter uncovered for days! She doesn't wash her hands after going to the bathroom, she touches things after touching raw meat, and...drum roll please...she was on her period and bled all over the bathroom, the toilet, the floor everywhere! It was the nastiest thing I've every seen. But here is where it gets bad... she brings strange men over to our apartment. Story time: Story #1 Patrick. Patrick is a friend of Heathers who is also from Tiawan. So Heather is taking a nap, and I'm the only other one home and there is a knock at the door. I open the door and there is standing a scary Asian man. He asks for Heather and I explain that she is taking a nap, he then says, "Oh I know, she told me to just sit in your kitchen till she woke up." ?!?!?!?!?!? So I can't go back into my room because Heather is sleeping so I have to sit with this guy, Patrick, and make small talk. He proceeds to tell me that he smokes and does weed. Great I'm alone with this guy and if he trys to rape me well I wouldn't be suprised if Heather sleeps through my screams. She didn't wake up for 2 hours.

Mkay Story #2 totally tops Story #1: Patrick and Heather and Strange man number 2 come to our apartment. Again, I am the only one home and they walk in and Heather tells Strange man #2 to sit and talk with me while she and Patrick go somewhere. So Strange man #2 sits down and Heather and Patrick leave. So I have to sit in my apartment alone with a strange man and make small talk. So strange man #2, Donald, starts making small talk, until he proceeds to offer me weed and ask me why I haven't invited him back to my bedroom for sex yet!!!

Offically the roommate from HELL!!! I thought I might get lucky after dealing with Valene, but OHHHHHH NO! I went from one extreme to the other. But, Heather has boys over way past curfew so we are working with managment to catch her breaking the honor code so they can terminate her contract....and speaking of Valene, she started bossing me around from another COUNTRY!!! She e-mailed me and told me she would be taking the bed by the window since I had it last time....great. So I decide, no way am I going to live with her again after having dealt with Heather all summer, so I go down and talk to management about roomming and they inform me that she had already e-mailed them about switching rooms behind my back. So thats when the crap hit the fan, I e-mailed told her she couldn't pay me to live with her agian and that we were going to find a girl to switch apartments with her. She e-mailed back saying, " You can't do that, you can't just kick me out with no where to go, I signed a contract for that apartment and you can't make me leave" even though she had e-mail the management less than a week ago asking to do that very same thing. So right now we're in the process of trying to find someone to switch with her...

THE END, well of roommate stories...

So I'm working at the Creamery still as a manager. I love it. And now I'm being paid in the research lab. Our research is going great, we had a little set back this morning but hopefully it will be fixed. My mom is in town, so its been nice to escape Heather for most of the day everyday.

I'm not dating that one boy anymore, he started to get flaky so I said goodbye. I got a letter from Jordan today :) He sounds SO good. Still not sure, what I'm thinking about him yet...however I do know that if he were to come home tommorrow I would marry him. Haha

My computer is broken. Dell is SUPER dumb and I HATE THEM!!!! I sent it in for this same problem in January under warrenty and they said they fixed and sent it back, however two weeks ago the same problem happened so I called and they said they wouldn't fix it because it was no longer under warrenty, even though it was the original problem that was NEVER fixed. So I took it to a computer repair place and they diagnosed it as a short in the Mother board that probablly had existed since the computer was made! And that it would cost $400 to fix! I hate my life! So thats whats going on...

You are offically caught up in my life. You're welcome.

Update from Becks

Hey my loves...sorry it's been like forever. I have been soooooo busy. So I just caught up on my other blog, and so now I will paste part of that, and add some, bc there's so much.

So first things first: School. Oh my heck! It was unbelievably busy, and stressful-Like I wanted to cry. But as stressed as I was, I finished well. The things I thought I bombed I actually didn't. I ended up with a 3.95 YAY!!!! Exciting right? Well I hardly had any academic classes, and it's pretty hard to fail your dance classes so it is really more of a joke than anything else. The unfortunate part is that due to budget cuts my scholarship got cut to a 1/4 of the original. The ironic part-my GPA is higher than the gpa that got me the original scholarship. So somehow I am going to have to come up with the extra money. We'll see how that goes.

Next: Moving out. Have I mentioned I hate this? Hate, hate, hate, double hate, LOATHE ENTIRELY!!!!! (The Grinch reference was totally for you Steph, although the sentiments are still mine). I almost cried at that part too. So besides a couple of my roommates, namely Krys who is my room roommate, they have been huge jerks, who backstab, exclude, never never clean, and have the attitude of 'holier than thou'. Essentually, me, Krys, and another one of my roommates who they literally would never talk to, had to clean the majority of the house. It was disgusting. Since the garbage cans outside were full, they just started leaving all their junk/garbage on the floor and the table,moldy food in the fridge. If the house had been inspected by officials, it probably would have been condemned. (so maybe that's a little melodramatic, but not by much). Me and krys and one other roommate were the only ones who cleaned out of 8 girls. I have been holding back on complaining about this because I was trying to be patient and what not...but that last weekend cut that resolve. I was livid.

Third: HOPE tour. (above pictures) In a word: Hysterical! My stomach was literally aching by the end of tour from laughing so hard. But maybe I was laughing so hard beacuse I was slap happy. There was like no sleep for the whole tour. We went to a bunch of seminaries mainly and performed our show for like 7 hours, literally, and then had a few more that night. It was a lot of fun. My favorite memory was when one guy changed the narration in one of our songs from 'we will now perform for you 27 of the most popular songs of the century in the next 7 1/2 thrilling minutes! Hold on tight ladies and gentlemen....' to 'we will now perform for you 247,000 songs in the next 14 hours...gentlemen bolt the doors and prepare for the megamix of the millenium!' Of course it probably isn't funny to you...but the entire song was shot after that because everyone was laughing so hard. My most favorite part was singing at the retirement homes. The spirit was always so much stronger there than anywhere else. It was truly incredible. For the last show my dad (pappi) came up. There is this part of the show that I have to go sing to the boys in the audience, and as I am making my way back to the stage, my jazz heel gets caught on the stair and I biff it. I mean it when I say that-I took a total faceplant-right in front of Pappi. It was classic. That half of the crowd was gasping and saying 'are you okay?' Never live that one down. As for the present my plans have changed: I am currently living on campus as a summer activities assistant, and RA. I LOVE my job!!!! It is seriously such an awesome job! I basically host and plan family reunions, youth conferences/EFYs, girls state, and camps. I absolutely love it, and might take it again next summer.

So one of my roommates is uber social=very unlike me, but she's making me do stuff with her. It's typically pretty fun, but she's trying to set me up with her friend. She thinks we're perfect for eachother. I think not. He's awesome, and I have a lot of fun with him, but I am not really attracted to him. We have so much in common, and he is such a great guy, and we complement eachother really well, but I can't see myself with him. It makes me sad, bc I don't want to get him interested and say 'woah, back off dude, I can't be kissing you.' And I wouldn't want to hurt such an incredible guy. Plus, I still have my eyes on the boy I told you about in one of my first posts way back in January or something. I've had a crush on him for like 9 months. So he's my ideal physically. He's absolutely gorgeous. Not only is he a professional drummer, but he's fluent in spanish, smart, athletic, dresses well, awesome family, mormon/rm, and then I just learned he is an incredible hip hop/freestyle dancer, and partner dancer. Too good to be true right? Exactly right. So my roommate is a friend of his and says he's way too good for me. She says he's incredibly arrogant and a major player that uses girls. Totally pissed off-I really just am. WHY? Why are they all STUPID BOYS!!!!!!! But on a better note, my roommate has offered to let me hang out with them and evaluate for myself. She thinks that I should give him a chance. We'll see how that goes.

Other news: My book- It's getting there. I have gotten so far, but I feel like it's the story that will never end!!!!! My goal is to finish it this summer, and if I don't, I'm dropping it. It's like 8 years in the making and that is just plain ridiculous, plus I have 2 other books that need to get out of my head and onto paper. Wish me luck!

Kay, so sorry that was unbelievably long, but I just had to get it out there.