Opinions wanted

I have a few dresses I've narrowed my pickings down to for the wedding, but I needed a little help. Yes the indecisiveness has yet to subside :) haha. If I could get your input that would be awesome. The colors are an ashy plum, antiqued rose color with cream and basically the chromatic scale in between. I wanted it to be really antique vintage so that's what we're goin with if that helps for mental image :) here ya go!

This first one is a satin ivory with lace and beaded detailing on the rouching(is that spelled right?) and a fuller a-line skirt.( We will be putting tulip sleeves in whatever dress we get, and Ivory wont matter because in order to wear it into the temple anyhow it has to be pristine white, comeup to about your neck, be long sleeved and very simple, so no matter what I get it can't be worn in the temple so Ill just be wearing a temple dress for the ceremony)

This other one is a white beaded satin bodice with an organza skirt. I didn't like it at first, but it grew on me. I like that it's different and that it's ridiculously light weight and looks kind of like water. haha.






















This last one is a white satin bodice with silver detailing and has a sheer gauzy material draped over it.






















I just kind of wanted to have you girls be a part of the experience since I couldn't have you here. haha and lets be honest, I could use some brute honesty in making a decision :) I love you girls. Thanks so much!

Sisterhood Reunion

The quotes:

• Abstinence makes you grow fondler -RAE




• Some large gentlemen...thugged out if you will-BECKS




• I'm not in the mood to get raped tonight- BECKS




• You can't be all three...you can be bald and short, but you can't be fat too. You've got to get hairplugs or something- RAE




• SNL Monologues x 100 - JAYNE AND MADDS




• Your body is public property end of story! -BECKS


• (Followed by) What kind of a dancer are you?-ANDY




• Interjact (I can't remember who said that one)




• 'Aaaaaaaaaaah! Aaaaaah!' -BECKS Stalker sound effects




• Woah! Woah! Woah! Woah! WOAH! -JAYNE AND MADDS

I don't know what to title this post so....it's untitled!

Me and Krys!

Morgan!!!!!!!!!!!!

Halloween

Tori's Wedding

Hey my loves!

I had to just load all the pictures on top...because blogger is SO DUMB!!!!!

I apologize for not blogging...But there has seriously not been time. So sometimes, I've felt as if the devil himself arranged my semester, instead of me. I want to punch him in the face sometimes. It's a good thing he doesn't have a body...

So so much has happened. I realized the last time I posted was in the summer. Well long story short...the summer ended well and conference planner was by far the very best job I had ever had.

School: I registered for 17 credits, but I'm actually taking 19, and dance practices, volunteering in the costume shop, and somehow...I got snagged back into HOPE choir. Let's just acknowledge that I am stupid and move on.

Boys: Non-existent. All the boys I like are unavailable...or impossible. And guy friends aren't much better. They all want to turn it into something. Double argggh.

Tori's Wedding- Amazing!!!! It was so beautiful, and so lovely. Tori looked like a dream. It was wonderful to catch up with everyone, and Rae- I got to hand it to you: I had so much fun with John! He was an awesome date.

Recent News....

-I AM AN AUNT!!!!! I am an aunt to the most beautiful baby ever!!!!! (pictures on the top) Her name is Morgan Jane Merkley. She was born on October 19, and as luck would have it, I was actually in Provo that weekend, and so I got to be the first to see her. And wow she is gorgeous. I love her so much it's unreal.

- I'm going to be going to Nail school. Probably this summer up north in the salt lake/davis area. I know it's superficial and has such a bad stereotype, but I am seriously so incredibly excited to go!!! I can hardly wait. I almost went and bought a bunch of supplies yesterday to teach myself how to do sets (fake nails). And then I saw how much the supplies cost, and I decided to go clean my room instead.

- There's a possiblity that I might drop out of school. It's not very likely...in fact it's almost non-existent...but I was seriously considering it about a week ago. I was going to finish off the semester, and then leave to go up north....I went and talked to my bishop, because things were getting so bad. He told me I was killing myself with my schedule, and he gave me a blessing which was hugely enlightening, and gave me just enough to keep going. And he told me to not get so involved next semester whatever I end up doing. So as this point I will probably stay...but who knows. I'll keep you guys posted.

-The book. Hhhm. Well it's going really well. And bishop actually encouraged me to keep writing it. If I had time that would happen. So as soon as I get off from blogging, I will be writing. There are so many people whom I have promised it to, and who are waiting on it, that I can't just not finish it.

My weekend has been amazing....even though there was nothing really special about it. I was pretty lazy. I slept a lot. I got my ring smashed onto my finger really bad...and had to get plyers to resmash it off. It's pretty mangled, and I'm bummed, bc my pappi gave it to me. (it's my turqouise one) But as painful and irritating as it was it was kinda really funny. Is it wierd that I find it really funny? Me and Krys got into hysterics hard core last night. Yeah. It was like we were high or drunk or something. And even though none of that was true...somehow I managed to fall off the bed, and couldn't figure out how I did, or how to get back up...and we were in tears from laughing so hard. Somehow someone 'wet Krysta's bed'. Not really, but her bed was really wet, and we couldn't figure out why. Wierd. It was great. We watched a movie, and just chilled, and I woke up today and it felt like christmas, and was such a relaxing nice day. It's been such a good weekend.

I love you all. Becks

Maddi and Rae, I'll see you within a couple weeks, cuz I'm coming back up north. (Sorry that was such a very long blog...but it had been a while

Why Oahu and I get along

So... I'm sitting at work and it's late and I'm tired but I got chastised from Becky for not posting so I figured I would take this opportunity to update you girls.
Explanation of pictures: The top one is when Chelle came here to visit me. We're in front of a sign that says you'll be shot if you pick the coconuts. ha The next one is a group of us preparing food for a BBQ. The next one is after a dinner party. Check out my darker hair and my pretty orange dress lol. The last one is all my girlfriends here in front of some sick work at KeiKi Beach (pronounced kay-kee or cakey ha)
Beck! Oh my gosh, youre hair is so cute! When you told me you were gonna cut I just about had a heart attack and contemplated flying to Utah to stop you from chopping off your gorgeous curls! But now Im glad I trusted your decision because youre still a babe and your new hair is super chic.
And P.S. i have no idea what the boy post thing is about but...he seems pretty tight and he's pretty cute. I vote you give that a shot.
Rachel! Wow you've been doing so much! And always in the company of a group of guys. ha thats my Rachel. Im crazy jealous of your Europe trip-- Ill get there someday.
Maddi! I hope your roomates are much better than you anticipated. Are you still loving your job? You loving any boys? ha
Um well this term I wanted to take easy on classes, so i stepped outside my comfort zone and signed up for an art class. It sucks. All we do is draw and I may or may not fail the course. So tragic. But on the up side, I'm taking a surfing class. It's a ton of fun, and, believe it or not, I'm gonna be a pro-surfer by the time this term ends. Okay not really, but I can get up on my board and I have a lot of fun. Im also taking a math class and a religion class but those two are unimportant because i hate them and they have too much homework. ha
Hmm, well i decided that my current group of friends here force my life to revolve around food. We get together to eat. We plan dinner parties and BBQs and when we're bored, we light a fire so that we can roast something to eat. Pineapple, mallows, starbursts, brownies, you name it, all of it goes into the fire then into my mouth.
Well in light of the previous paragraph, I have also started running religiously again. I go for at least an hour a day and havent skipped a day in almost a month now (well besides Sundays of course). Running highs are my favorite highs. Not that I have anything to compare them to. Now all I have to do is stop eating so much and I might actually look like a runner. Dont hold your breath for that one though.
If you want an update on boys youre gonna have to call meeee. But I wouldnt bother because there isnt anything to update you on. Im never going to get married willingly and instead I am joining the peace corps as soon as I graduate. Can't wait.
I dont have a roomate this term and i absolutely love it. The entire room is mine and once fall hits I'm not going to be very happy to give half of it up. If I weren't an RA i would totally move into a house off-campus... or buy a van and live in it. Both sound pretty appealing.
Well I realized that Hawaii is perfect for me. I dont have to get dressed up ever (my wardrobe during the week honestly consists of V-neck tshirts and jeans or board shorts), nothing ever starts on time, Samoans make me amazing highly caffienated cocoa, I dont have to wear shoes, I can get anywhere on my longboard because the town is so small (a skateboard-longboard not a surfboard-longboard), your interviews with your bishop consist of the questions "do you wear a bikini" and "do you drink kava-roots", byuh security is the towns police (like literally), everyone greets eachother with a hug and a kiss on the cheek, Asian girls are the nicest, we constantly hate on "tourists", Hurricane Felicia and Enrique didnt bring anything besides humidity and good waves to surf (humidity is okay cuz it makes my skin lovely and my hair is beyond hope anyways so no big), no one judges you when your addicted to Matsumotos and Ted's bakery on North shore, and there are awesome concerts at pipeline cafe because every band wants to come here to play.
Anyways, once fall starts im going to have to stop being such a bum but Im enjoying it while I can. I lovve you all and hope your summers are ending well!
P.S. GIJoe was a sick movie
P.S.S I absolutely LOvE my Family Home Evening group. Im the Mom and also the only white girl. It's the reason I'm happy right now.

A matter of life or death!!!

ok not really. But Becky is going to a wedding and needed a date and asked for a friend that would be willing to go with her. I immeadiately thought of my good friend Jon Rudy. He's basically my favorite. haha. So now you all get a nice little intro into the life of Jon. For the sake of a wedding date :) haha. Ok! here we go. Jon os the one person I would bring with me from salt lake to provo when i go to school...it just so happens thats where he is now! He's an actor, screen writer, entrepeneur, and all around good guy. He's incredibly spiritual and I have the most fun with him. One time we went to the movies and took an entire dinner in with us. Bacon wrapped chicken shishkabobs (oh yeah, he's a great cook too) with some of my bread and homemade jam. Just kind of based on how I know him I think Beck and Jon would have a great time. They both have the skill of relating to pretty much everyone and can talk about just about anything. They both are some of the more inviting conversationalists that I know. They are both incredibly passionate and stinknin hilarious. I'm k ind of starting to get jealous of the good time they would have. haha. Well I have posted some pictures. Let me tell you about them. haha I feel like im introducing a candidate for matrimony. NOT THAT SERIOUS! But he really is a great guy. Exhibit a of pictures. this is one he drew on his mission. yes, he's artsy and creative too. haha. He is on the right hand side. And this is very much jon. He is my favorite geek. haha. Exhibit b is just jon. You wouldnt believe he has the prettiest eyes from these picture, but they're stunning. Very soft looking too. exhibit c is a camp out. he's a well rounded guy that likes to have fun. Including camp outs with lot of friends. I actually went snow camping with him. That was stinkin awesome! Watching all the guys try to chop frozen wood for the fire was hilarious...Especially jon. hahaha. exhibit d is actually from one of the sets of a movie he acted in. I don't remembe what it's called, but its my friend Janarae's siblings favorite movie. When they heard we were friends with him they made her get his autograph. hahaha. We make fun of him because of one of the scenes. The line is..."This fence.....it's...new." and it makes me laugh. Oh! maybe I'll post that one too. haha. And last but not least is a ghost buster picture. it makes me smile. he sometimes goes to conventions for his costume and has won multiple awards for it. and i just think its a great picture to show his personality. All in all I think Jon is a good candidate for Becky to just have fun with. Read and enjoy my dears. Please, give your input. haha.

This n this n this is our fate. I'm yours!

Firstly these are some pics of my new place :) I tried to load them once before and something happened so I'm sorry if they come up twice. Then there is one of me with a member of the guard...who winked at me!!! It was hilairous. I was shocked. That expression is smile going into shock. haha. Then lastly we have my boys in spedos. hahaha. Ok I guess I cant really call them my boys, but these are the infamous few that I went to Europe with that insisted on getting spedos. Yes, the one in the middle has one too, but we took the picture before he took off his trunks. haha.

It goes Danny, Mindaugas, Robbie, Justin, Tyler.Haha there you go. :) Enjoy the silly faces.

Becks your hair looks beautiful :) No matter the length I think that will always be the case though :) And you can be assured I'm rooting for you and your book. I know you're so close and I want to read from a hard cover. Any day now :)

Jayne, I must have more details of Hawaii! I know you're having the time of your life and I never hear much about it :) Although as I hear it you're also vry busy, so I'm not too upset about no updates. But, hey, who can blame me for being curious as to how your lovely face is impacting one of the more beautiful places of the world?

Mad now that I am closer to you I think we must do something some time. I miss your big laugh and the way you put your hand up to your cheek when you gets excited. I need Maddi time! haha

Rachel, you sill girl, you are terrible at updating this thing! Well, lets be honest, Beck and I were talking and nobody has really updated recently so I'm just gonna jump in and do one. Especially since there's so much to update on. I hope it will slightly motivate you to do one too cause I love hearing about your lives and I just love you girls. haha. Today is August 4th. Basically the end of my summer as I am back in Utah. I moved into my new place on saturday and sent my mom home on a plane yesterday. I have met one of my five roommates and she is wonderful. Her name is Kat and she has a lot of the best interests ever! I only say that cause we have them pretty much in common. She loves music, of every kind, art, food and she loves to talk. So we're pretty much the same, hahaha. But really, she's very sweet. The house is really cute. It's a split level with a pretty small kitchen, but the whole thing needs some TLC. There's very little here and not very much color on the wall. I hope to remedy that soon :) Oh! We found a cat in the window well when we moved in. It was stuck down there and I finally called animal control today to try and get it out. It was such a FAT kitty!!!! It couldnt jump out of a three foot hole. I felt kind of bad. But now he's safe and I get to live in my house with no crying kitties :)

In way of school I'm stinkin excited for the semester to begin at LDSBC. I went over to request a transcript yesterday and it was wonderful! I miss it very much. I'm sure I will in the winter too, because you heard right, I went to request a transcript. I'm hoping to transfer to BYU. I have everything in and ready to go, but the stinkin Besmart thing wont let me pay online. haha. So I'm probably gonna have to take a trip down to Provo and get that taken care of myself. Wont be a problem, I'm kind of excited to take the trip anyhow. haha. So we'll see how that all goes and with any luck I'll be there in the winter.

In way of work...I'm still looking. haha. Today has been my get things done day. I exercised, wrote missionarries letters, looked for some jobs, applied for a few, got numbers for lowes, home depot and a chevy dealer so I can find a place to make a duplicate of my car key...cause heaven knows I may be needing it :) haha. Anyhow, there is one job I am particularly drawn to right now. I found an add in the Salt Lake tribune for a part time opening taking newborn pictures at the university hospital in Salt Lake and I want it so bad. It's requires every other weekend and only three days a week, which is perfect since I'm going to school two out of five days of the week..although I may be switching one of them for another class on mondays and wednesday, cause I'll be in classes for about 8 hours every tuesday and 6 every thursday taking that route. which isnt too bad right now, but i don't know how it will be working too. Eh! We'll see. haha.

Here's a big one. What have I done with my summer? Not a whole lot :) Listening to music has been part of everything, but whats new there? haha I am now a fan of Nightwish, a bigger fan of Jason Mraz and have found one of the cutest songs from Never Shout Never called Trouble. So cute :) Traveling has been great!there's still a ton about Europe that hasn't been touched on. I still need to post the spedo picture :) haha Boston was wonderful too. I went with my family for a week. We went to Salem, saw the witchy stuff :) Toured the house of 7 gables. We saw a lot of the historical sites in Boston itself. We visited the grave of Paul Revere, who is actually an ancestor, so kinda cool. And the old north and south church, we took the duck tours!!! which was awesome and ate a lot of good food. We also visited the temple. That was probably my favorite part. It was Spencer's first time to go do baptisms and my first time with both my parents as well as my entire family. It was tender :) And beautiful! The grounds were incredible and the spirit was amazing. I highly recommend it as a place to visit. I could also recommend one of the Dunkin Doughnuts there, but they wouldn't be hard to find. There were more of those than starbucks and walmarts combined. It was bizarre. All in all a pretty rockin trip. Right after we got back from Boston we were able to settle for a week and revive our juices, then it was off to Utah for a week :) haha. We spent the fourth of July up here and it was splendid. fireworks, barbecues, tubing down some rivers, waterslides in jeans cause I didnt have my swimming suite and lots of being crafty. I made Jenn a birthday present as her birthday is two days before mine and we roasted starbursts over a fire pit. This was also a pretty defining weekend. jenn , as you may remember is Justin's sister. I spent quite a bit of time with him during that week. At the end of the week he wanted an answer. Something with closure in a moving forward sort of manner or to close all doors. Well in this last summer it has become very obvious to me that I'm not ready to get married and my heart isn't exactly entirely anyone's right now. Which is also exceedingly unfair to all parties. And there's still so much I want to do. I want to know exactly who I am and have an understanding of the gospel and make sure that who I am is who Heavenly Father plans for me to be, atleast at that time. And I wanna be an EFY counselor!!!! haha. I just want to know I'm being the best person I can be and be able to give that to the person I love most. So we closed all doors in approach to a relationship and now just remain friends. It's hard sometimes, but the time was far from right. And making this choice was one of the only things that has given me such peace in a good long while. At the same time, as I prayed about these things I also got the answer that I needed to be dating Riley right now. That it was something I needed to do. Maddi, I'm sure you're not thrilled to hear about that, but know that it's been good. If it wasn't the lord wouldn't have told me to do so. But I tell ya what, he has changed. He's still Riley and as wonderful and ever, but he's decidedly more considerate of...everything. haha. He has matured in many ways. He takes notice of those around him, includes and tries to be the person they need him to be. And he's considerably more weathered. They did finally find out what was wrong with him, and oddly enough, it was the day after I told him what was going on with Justin. And he was very comforting about the whole ordeal. He's been such a stronghold and an exmple to me this summer. I don't think that him comming home was a coincidence. I think I needed someone to show me the things I wasn't ready for, but by being loved at all the same time and that I needed to be there to help him too. I don't know how, but I think we were both the only way we each were going to learn these things. Who knows. haha. I'm not waiting. I'm still dating and living life, while writing him, but we'll see where that takes us. I don't know if it's meant to be, but I love him dearly and sent him again for the second time when I moved back to Utah. He's leaving today for Alabama again and he's better than ever. I hope I can be the same all the way out here.

Well there ya go. My summer in a nutshell. Oh! I have done some considerable amounts of rock climbing and have found I LOVE it. So this may become a new hobby. As soon as I can find an instructor to teach me the knots and the money for the equipment. haha this could take a while. So as for now I'll stick to rollerblading, which I can finally do again because Taylorsville isn't as hilly as Flagstaff! haha. Anyhow. I'll leave you ladies be. I'm off to go job huntine again and read a little bit. I love you all dearly and hope you all have some light in your life. If from nothin else then from the sky. That's my favorite place to look. It makes me realize how little I am and it always amazes me. I can tell the lord is in it :) Stay strong, you're beautiful!

-Rachel

Locks of Love and Loving the Bob

So like oh my heck Rae, can I just tell you how incredibly happy I am that you got to go to Europe? Like 99.9 %. The remaining percent is wishing I could have been there with you. Someday we'll all have to go to Europe. It's definetely on my to-do list.

Pig, let us know how your RA job is going. I am really curious to hear what kind of things you have to deal with at BYU-Hawaii, and if you're enjoying it. Congrats on graduating, though I am sorry about the rain. What's the boy situation from your side of the world?

Madds- I feel very vengeful everytime I read about your roommates. It makes me want to take up kick-boxing and then visit them. I would like to dispense my displeasure on them, verbally, and physically. You have nightmare roommates. You could honestly make a horror film about them. Hateful people. But from me to you- hang in there babes.

I chopped off over a foot of hair. AAAAAaaaaahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've lost my marbles right? (Well that fact was established ages ago). I actually like it a lot. And hate it a lot. So here's the story. As most of you know, I've had my hair a few inches from my tukus (that's butt in becky language) for almost 6 years now. I was very attached to it. It was like that one constant thing in my life. If my skin sucks, or I'm feeling fat (daily occurance), or just plain ugly, I knew I could always count on my hair to be my one redeeming feature. Unfortunately, the hair finally had enough of taking all the pressure. So I'm not sure if I mentioned this, but my OB put me on a new birth control last christmas, and essentually stopped my periods for 5 months. They were just testing my hormones, and it was pretty nice, but my hairdresser thinks it induced alopecia areata-hair loss in certain patches. I've been losing a lot of hair on the top of my scalp and in one spot in particular. My hair was seriously hashed. There was no body, or volume, and it was getting really thin on top, while still being really thick on the bottom. So, after talking to Tori, who had a similar problem, I followed in her footsteps and chopped off my hair. I had full intentions of growing it back immediately, and just getting a fresh start like she did, but now I'm not sure what I want to do with it. I love the style, and everyone else says it fits me way better than my long hair. Hhhhm. I don't really think so. It's fun and cute, but really I think it's just a faction of myself. I think the long hair was a huge part of my identity; a part that I liked, and even though I will probably keep this hairstyle for a couple of years, in the end I think I'll be going back to my long hair.

So what did I do with all that hair? I'm donating it. That was actually the deciding factor for me. I thought about taking it up about 6 inches and seeing if that would help, but the more I thought about it, the more I knew that I would regret it if I didn't. All the hair a few inches away from the scalp was in really good condition, and it would be wasteful not to donate it. Hopefully Locks of Love can turn it into a beautiful wig for some little girl who's lost her hair.

I thought it would be easier to style my hair short. Wrong. I have to style it. It's too short for a ponytail, barely fits into pigtails, and looks absolutely terrible if I don't style it. Hopefully it will just take time. (For the first time in several years I am using hairspray. The only times I ever used hairspray was for things like dance/guard competitions. wierd.) So right now the hair is a love-hate relationship.

My family news: Lolly has a bubble on her belly! Teehee! I am so excited to be an aunt! And guess what?!!?!! Benneth Lee is coming home from his mission in a few days!!!!!!!! I am ecstatic! I have missed my bro so bad. If anyone can make me laugh, it's him, and it's become pretty clear to me that I need that badly right now. I am coming home late in July with Boz to see Ben. Lindsay: A doll and a half. Gosh that girl is becoming so gorgeous, and mature. (Boys are lining up-literally). My mum: She actually just got a part time job at an Arts Studio. (As a secretary). It's totally the kind of place I would like to work at when I finish my degree. (dance, music, acting etc...) Unfortunately, my dad is still unemployed. It's been 7 months now, and the money is running low. We're hoping my moms job will at least ease the strain. Especially because my dad is (my sister-in-law from Canada) Stephanie's legal sponsor, she and Jon may have to move back to Canada. I know the Lord will take care of us though. If you could remember my family in your prayers that would be nice, and I have a special request; I am personally having a really hard time, and I've been fighting it for over a year now, but it's not getting any better. I don't know what's wrong. It's getting to the point where my parents want me to go to a doctor. My dad thinks I have depression, and/or the hormone experimenting my OB did on me really threw me off, but regardless I am having a hard time. I think the hardest part is knowing 'I'm not that girl' (the kind to get depressed) and I never have been. I've always been a happy person-when I get in ruts I get back out, and fast. I don't what the solution is, so If you could keep me in your prayers I would really appreciate it.

Oh and by the way, there is a possiblity that I will be going to the lake with science boy. *big smile*. He invited my roommate to plan a lake trip with him and asked her to invite her friends. We'll see if it happens. It might not even get planned. But if it does, the lake is the perfect opportunity to see if he really is a player and jerk. (You know how guys get in water. They seem to have few inhibitions, and are so physical. Wierdest thing ever in my opinion but whatever.) I am hoping that I will be pleasantly suprised.

Also my roommate and I (Krys) might be living in the wilderness for a week or two. (literally in Zions or Cali beaches, no hotel rooms, no showers, a backpack of stuff and thats it.) This is my attempt at shedding pounds and getting away from Cedar. We just want to walk all day and explore.

I love you girls so much, and feel privelaged to call you my sisters.

--Becks--

P.S. I changed the background...I'm not sure what I think of it-let me know.